I lay in bed thinking about my bitter sweet tomorrow. Friday Aug 20, the last full day [outside of public school holidays] that Marcus will be home with me during the day. I know he is ready for Monday but am I? Am I ready to let him go full time - 5 days a week all day? Who will hear me talking to myself and come in running asking "What is wrong Mommy?". No more..."Mommy, I need a snack or drink." No more 9 or 930am sleepy voice "Mommy, come get me awake!" I feel the tears already.
I know I have to release him in the world but it's scary....the world is a scary place :(
I can only have faith in myself and him that I have done all I can do to this point for him to be able to enter the world and begin to make his own decisions, make his own friends, further develop his personality, ask the big and important questions, and last but not least break a few hearts.
Come Monday, all will be quiet and lonely...except for my tears and sniffles!
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