Surreal

My life is so surreal right now....it feels like I am watching a movie play edited scenes of my reality. Every day I am realizing more and more how fast my baby is growing up right before my eyes. One minute he was this helpless little boy and now he is losing his first tooth, picking out school clothes, making his own lunch, and going to Kindergarten.

This is his last week as a preschooler...his last Sunday night to stay up late and sleep in on Monday...even though he probably shouldn't. I can't help but want to give him all the free time he will have for the rest of his life. He has no idea how his life is about to change, how he is going to be growing up on his own, developing his own preferences out in the big world.

Marcus lost his first tooth this morning and for a split second I said "We have to call nana and granny." Not even realizing as I said it, but once I heard the words out loud...surreal.

Another major milestone without our Nana but we know she was watching down on us and was so happy and proud of Marcus. Can angels chip in on the tooth fairy's contribution too? lol

Life is a funny thing...you may not realize how perfect your life is while you are living it but when you get the chance to sit back and look in as an outsider...it's AWESOME! I have been having some dreams lately, as myself looking back on my life and some of the bigger moments. Of course we all have things we probably would have done differently but all it would have taken is one alteration and life as you know it would not exist. I truely am happy at this point in my life...not necessarily where I thought I would have been a year ago, but in a much better place in my opinion. Just goes to prove that we always don't know what is best for us. We need to sit back, buckle in, and hold on for the ride of our life. No maps or navigation just faith, hope and dreams.