Thanksgiving this year will be unlike any precedented Thanksgiving in my family. We will be one member short at the table this year. Our beloved Nana will be watching from above. It will be very weird as I step into the kitchen this year...she's not there to either help or cook it all herself. No more of her telling us to leave the mess til later so we can play cards after dinner. No more stuffing ourselves full while she barely took a few bites cuz she was full from cooking it all.
Old habits are hard to break. I finally deleted her phone number from my house phone but can not yet delete it out of my cell. I have stopped myself 3 times so far in picking up things for her for Christmas. I always seem to find the exact point in the Christmas candy aisle with the creme drops that she loved. Marcus and I made ornaments with her picture in them to hang on the tree. She will be a part of our Christmas forever now and hanging on our tree shining bright. My only regret is letting her win when she said no pictures of her. It was so hard to get pictures of her and now that is all we have or shall I say what little we have.
This Thanksgiving (more than any other) will be a time to remember our blessings and truely thankful moments in life. She will forever be with us and we will continue to go on one day at a time.
On another sad note, I will be attempting my 2nd turkey dinner for Thanksgiving in my adulthood. It has been 12 years since I have made a Thanksgiving dinner...should be interesting. The turkey is already clean of feathers, right???? lol
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