Family

This past weekend we got to spend some time with my stepmom's parents. Marcus had a blast for the first time meeting them. He liked his great grandpa & grandma. Makes me wish I were closer to more of my family. Especially around the holidays I would love to have 30 or so relatives together around the table. Believe, they are out there but so many miles apart. I wish for Marcus to grow up a family orientated man. I hope he takes the concept of family to heart. Even though our immediate family is small I don't always feel we are close (not in the geographic sense). Yes I am the closest to my mom but not so much with my dad or brother. I wish that were different. It just feels as if the past is holding us back with no forward movements. For Marcus' sake especially we need to work on that and the sad thing it that it will have to fall on me to make the moves. But that is okay.
In a few weeks I will be seeing my grandmother from my dad's side face to face for the 1st time in 15 years. Yes she lives in Arizona but that should be no excuse for the time lapse. Marcus has yet to meet her so that visit will be in the works as well. He may not remember it but she and I will. I'm in hopes of getting to see a once very close cousin and I can't wait either....we were itty bitties (literally) last time we were face to face! I have been fortunate enough not to have lost any of my immediate family yet but I feel as if I need to wake and quit taking our time together for granted.